unreasonable behavior

dense walls of calm 

and accurate logical grounds. 

uncompromising brutal decisions, 

perverse quest for sadistically unveiled facts. 

embarrassing stubborn ingenuity. 

vast reliable fields of strength. 

cautiously tamed. 

twisted but precise sense of humor 

and sarcastic self-appraisal irony. 

endless, reckless generosity. 

you are the most unacceptable life form, 

my friend.

empathy

this hollow eye
is just starring at me
and cry.
such merciful, ignorant organ should never dry.

it goes without saying

my beautiful little sun,
your ever brighten
territories in me are not to be touched
by anyone.

appetite

smelling my fingers,
diving into your scent;
brings me hunger, luxurious panic,
throws me into a bottomless bovaric dent.

needy and starving,
unreasonably exultant.
in my feverish brain,
tracing the reminiscence of your inner fluids
plunge me into some kind of a primary loop; beautifully redundant.

I shall let you
feast on me.

where are Thou??

I’m loosing this one
I think
I don’t know
but everything I do is to sink.

my anger
seems to thrive
on my brain’s Almighty self destructive endeavor.

my angel!!
where are you, my Light?
my only hope for enduring this beautiful life
(fucking crying my heart out here..)

I can’t do it by myself
my demons are dealt in for me.

such a hard sell..
where are you MY SWEET POWERFUL GABRIEL??!?!
my glorious Archangel!

I promise I’ll call you ceaselessly
bend and purge all my hell
just for you to be endless fire in my rotten fleshy dwell.

Your height
I’m reaching it
Right NOW in MY HEART!

it burns
a forever moment.


and still I want out.
my furies won’t give up.
would/could you stay with me in this fight?
my Lord!
I’ve never been so far from your light..